The cardiologist entered my assigned exam room. Hubby and I would get the lowdown on yet another diagnosis for me—this time, AFib.* Not life-threatening, I’d been told, but a concern primarily due to increased risk of stroke.
Okay. I
started on a prescribed medication to combat stroke. Next step?
I hoped
for ablation. Yup! That held possibility of eliminating this new threat to my
already presumed abbreviated life due to lung disease. So, that’s what my
choice would be.
Ablation:
a medical procedure where an instrument would be fed from my lower region up into
my heart and burn out the tiny area causing an extra systolic beat. Goal: Changing
the bah-bah-bum, returning it to a normal bah-bum.
That
would do quite fine, thank you very much.
But the
cardiologist didn’t have those words for me. Instead, he said, “Normally we
could…”
Normally? Uh-oh. Already a warning here,
raced this thought through my head.
“…go in
and…” and the doctor went on quite calmly.
My mind
skipped over the rest of his “normally” to the “but.”
“But
because of your lung disease, I wouldn’t take the risk of operating on you.
Putting you under.” He x-ed out ablation in the diagram he’d already drawn on a
white board to explain AFib.
I zeroed in on him. “I hoped you could
fix this.”
“I’m
sorry, but your situation makes it more risk than worth.” He stood silent for
some moments.
I
processed: No ablation. Stupid lung disease. Rats! “Oh well,” I finally
blurted, shrugging my shoulders and glancing at my husband with a grimace.
“I can
prescribe a medication. It’s not a fix, but it’s somewhat of a help,” the
doctor said.
I tilted
my head left to right and back again. “I guess somewhat’s better than nothing.”
“It is.”
So, we
left the doctor’s office with a tidbit of hope in my overly active heart.
When we
were back in the car, I admitted, “I’m sort of disappointed. I really hoped to
cross this problem off my list.”
“It
would’ve been nice,” Brian said. “Maybe you’ll feel better after a nice lunch.
You pick the place.”
“Joisey
Mike’s!” I said attempting to lighten my mood.
“Okay,
Joisey girl!”
And we
headed on our way.
“I wanna
cry but not,” I said. “I mean, this isn’t a nothing. Right?”
“Right,”
Brian affirmed.
“Sorta
like when we went to the pulmonologist, and he told me I made gains after
months of rehab. Some progress. So much hard work to gain just 1% in one
score and 2% in another on my PFT** though.” My shoulders dropped.
“But,
Sarah, at least your scores went up, not down,” Brian said, turning toward our
next stop.
“I know.
I guess it helped somewhat.”
“And somewhat’s better than nothing.
Right?”
I broke a smile. “Where have I
heard that before?”
Somewhat’s better than nothing. Something
to cling to—to keep me from drowning.
Was I disappointed? For a while. Maybe
30 minutes. But, I admit, I thoroughly enjoyed that Jersey Mike’s sub!
*****
Not long ago, I shared in a blog post
about a young lady named Jane who went by stage-name Nightbirde. She had cancer
that returned a 3rd time—this time giving her only a 2% chance of
survival. I think Jane must’ve struggled with that news when her oncologist
broke it to her.
But Jane (a believer in Jesus) wasn’t always
weighted down by this news. Instead, at the close of her audition on America’s
Got Talent, this beautiful but frail woman said, “I have a 2% chance of
survival, but 2% is not 0%. 2% is something, and I wish people knew how
amazing it is.”
Can you imagine? I can’t, yet
faith in Jesus Christ offers hope—solid ground to stand on.
My diagnosis is so far below the seriousness of Jane’s, yet we—for a brief moment—may’ve share something in common—finding something in what looked more like nothing.
And that’s
something! Small perhaps but a positive step.
Reader,
have you been in a situation where you find yourself questioning if there’s
anything left? Does it look like you’re facing nothing? Are you wanting to
cling to something?
Someone?
Hope!
There’s always hope because that isn’t just a thing—it’s a Him! Jesus Christ
provides a solid foundation for our faith, and this gives us hope…
…even in
the somewhats.
The Solid Rock
My hope is built on nothing less than
Jesus' blood and righteousness;
I dare not trust the sweetest frame, but wholly lean on Jesus' Name.
Refrain: On Christ, the
solid Rock, I stand: all other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
When darkness veils His lovely face, I
rest on His unchanging grace;
In every high and stormy gale, my anchor holds within the veil. [Refrain]
His oath, His covenant, His blood, support
me in the whelming flood;
When all around my soul gives way, He then is all my hope and stay. [Refrain]
When
He shall come with trumpet sound, O may I then in Him be found:
Dressed in His righteousness alone, faultless to stand before the throne. [Refrain]
(from the hymn, The Solid Rock, by
Edward Mote, 1834, public domain)
#hope
#AFib #ablation #JesusChrist #firmfoundation #solidrock
*atrial fibrillation
**Pulmonary
Function Test
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